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So, I've been thinking. I check my friend's blogs off and on and am always dissapointed when they haven't updated. I feel like it is my privaledge as a blog-reader to know everything that is going on in their worlds. Then, I realized, I don't update. How distressing. I am committing to do better. Random thoughts, actual happenings, pics, whatever, I WILL BLOG. So here goes,

Today - not such a big deal. Work. A little grumpy because I haven't slept much thanks to 2 11-7 shifts at the hurricane shelters. I actually enjoyed them - a little time with co-workers - dominoes, cards, not too shabby. The eight hours of work following it wasn't even as bad as I expected. Now, however, I am paying.

I've way over-committed myself (as always). Everyone is always saying - you have to stop, tell them no. But, they are also the same people who don't want to hear no when it's their turn. So, I'm working on church music, but missing practice. Singing for the Archbishop of Canterbury at the Episcopal evensong service for the 150 anniversary at St. Thomas - but haven't been to rehearsals - it's only next SUNDAY. working, missing, my boys, planning a trip away, desperately trying to find just the right protrait and size and space for Samuel's beautiful shots. Hating that some people are committed to not liking me no matter how hard I try - & laughing at the fact that they think complaining to my husband makes a difference in his love for me - all the while only changing his lifetime worth of opinions of them.

I want to re-model, and move - both at the same time, and don't know which I want more, so I just turned it over to God. I want to live in His will, but I'm not sure if my way of thinking is doing that, or avoiding making my own decision. It's sad.

My boys amaze me. Samuel is soaking up so much at school - such a smart boy, with a wild active imagination. He is so head-strong - I love that about it, even when it makes raising him so difficult. James Isaac is so LAID BACK. He laughs at everything - especially Samuel. He doesn't really want to crawl - but it's coming. He has the most beautiful eyes - and is such a cuddle-bug. They both make my 'cup' run over. And when I realize that, my heart breaks for my Meredith. Each night, Jeremy and I go into their rooms and pray over them as they sleep, and I can't pray for my own children, without praying for hers. God has something so huge planned for her, I just know that. I can't wait to see what her future holds. ( I love you, MEME).

AHHH--OK, I really have work to do, so here goes, doing it. I'll come back to this later....